I might be weird Estonian but today walking home through the rain – I just loved it!! I don’t know why but I was just smiling, feeling the rain and thinking. Maybe it came from the sky with the rain because just before that in the lecture I was down a little bit and couldn’t just sit there anymore. But the rain.. It feels amazing! (I’m not high!)
The last week I had so many ups and downs and right now I feel I am finally getting the everyday life again. Focusing on my studies, even more than last year because of my plans, I am ready to go on some adventures which I am doing on Saturday, going to Helsinki, Finland, and hopefully get job, so I could slow down my partying.
One of the reasons why I go out so much is that I can’t stand being alone in my apartment. I need to socialize and have fun. This summer changed so much. If I am stuck at home then I am going crazy, feeling depressed and thinking about SD which makes me miss my second home even more. Fortunately my new flatmate will move in at the end of the week, so I will always have company at home (I mean the cat!).
But some everyday update too! On Friday we went to the big apartment party (100+ people). Of course the police came and sent everyone away, but the party moved to Rüütli Street like always. It was quite fun and we (me, my bestie and one guy) ended up at my place drinking Riga Palsam and talking til 5am. I went to sleep when they left but they talked til 9am outside somewhere.
And the next day I thought that I will have it all on studying but one guy asked me out to go the concert, I couldn’t say no. Before that we managed to go some private birthday party in the cellar band-room. Those guys there were quite freaky and really stoned. Quite funny to look at them though. The concert was super awesome. It was one Estonian hip-hop artist called Chalice and I was surprised that I recognized most of the songs. I listened to this kind of music like 6 years ago I think.
And the next few days I got to speak with Chris more, even Skype with him which is a great accomplishment! Getting the positive energy form that far away is quite amazing! And I am really happy for him getting some big things done!
And it was my sister’s birthday yesterday! Happy birthday, sista!! And the second thing – believe or not but I have been in Estonia exactly one month! Doesn’t feel like it.
But the next few weeks will gonna be hell for me I think because I am having some bigger things on the weekends and at the same time only more school stuff is coming. So I have to figure something out! But I will make it! Like my headline is saying: Positive thoughts will keep me going!! 🙂